I’m so disappointed with myself. Every time I try to change I can never go through with it. I’m going to stay the same forever. I’m not motivated enough and even when I am it just stops. I’m never going to be able to do anything right, i can never go through with anything. I wish I could. I somehow ruin everything as well. I just want to be proud of myself for once and happy with myself. But I think that’s never going to happen.